Went to temple yesterday...

Everything is changing; i've realised..

Why is the world evolving around me?
(or am i thinking too much?)

Sigh; what am i thinking!!

i should sleep now.
goodnight

FINALLY SLEPT YESTERDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha~ thanks all that cared for me :) really appreciated!!
way to go!!

jiayou jiayou jiayou!!

haha i'll not be so tensed up in the new kitchen ANYMORE *i try*
i'll treat myself better!
i'll sleep more!!
i'll NOT think too much


glad to be in this kitchen with all understanding people^^
please bare with me... n 多多体谅 & 饱含 :D :S

i dunno y m i crying now.

idiot. im such an idiot
sigh,. i cry when ppl treat me gd

no, i jus feel bad; very bad
like at first i tot they r bad ppl i dun dare 2 get close to
suddenly i realised im wrong

den y m i still feelin so stressed?
inside the kitchan.. i find myself bcoming stupid.
very careless & throw everything i've learnt back...
all the safety rules, hygiene; correct equiptments...


sigh.. wad a wierd personility i have
i think im too emo to blog now,

i hope that i will feel happy again; jus like in shatec
free n happy... i know i will be... maybe later?

YESTERDAYYY guess wad i did????

LOL!! i went to MALAYSIA WID JOANNEEEE :D:D

Lalalala..~~
bought many things n food ^^
Happy, ohhhhz 2dae hav 2 go back kitchen, hope that everything will be fine !! :D

simin JIAYOUZ!!
*i hope i wont lose my identity again.........

(evil kids trying to hide their...... LOL)

Lol, went to theme park today;;
nice weather; haven been under the sun after so long!!

lol~~ mmm yup finally found myself back :D:D
haha.. felt so stressed over the last few days !!!!!! ARGG lol.. but ya... luckily there's off day here for me to relax~~ :)

in my new workplace, im under Sam, who is so much like chef abby .. looks abit alike, charactor alike too!! lol.. but wellz, cos im too stressed so... i didnt talk much ... i've decided to learn canto!! :D:D

felt so revitalized after this trip :)

Day 3... lol..

ENDED!!


nervous* tomorro going 2 work officially :D
simin jiayou!!

sigh.. im afraid...

Hi, after chatting wid joanne; i felt way better ^^

Anyway.. today; hmm had our day 2 orientation;
more interesting today (not cos e speaker) lol.. cos shatecs all sit together in a table.. ^^ LOL wid chef abby n others; so... not so bad.. 'self entertain'

Hmm.. Yup.. glad tt she's there to guide us..

Here are some photos taken today :

(very proud of this pic i've taken.. i jus like this pic alot lol.. love the caged wine)

(Chef abby, @ equinox restaurent)

(Hongpoh @ *i forgot the name* 'club')

(Chef abby & the scenery -.-)

(Scenery in one of the restaurant)

(Sky??? i forgot the name :X but hey its 74th storey !!)

(lol.. dun look at the person.. look at the background!! *equinox.. :D)

Sigh; i realised i can get caught into so many sorts of jealousy .. me and my stupid emotions..

Sigh suddenly, i miss my classmates..

Looking at the schoolmates gathering together.. i feel..
Sometimes i dont really understand myself.. dont really understand how i function.. dont really understand why m i feeling in such a stupid manner... you know.. you know..

For once i thought i understand myself.. then suddenly i realise no, i dont..
Stupid..

I've always thought im a independent person.. Like.. cos im the only child, shop alone, and more and more...
BUT now i suddenly see myself a very dependent person.. I need someone to guide me....

I've always thought im mature in thinking wise; BUT now i suddenly feel so stupid.. Low in EQ . I cant control my thinkings & emotions.. Or my thinkings & emotions contridicted against eachother...

Sigh.. I find myself so stupid.. to give in full trust to anyone so easily.. or to think that ya.. that person will always be there with me.... and suddenly realised it's just my wishful thinkings...

And anyway i realised its so difficult for me to open up.. infront of strangers.. or people i dont know... i realised that i have quite a fear of males -.- like i cnt communicate with them .. feel so uncomfortable with their presence...... (with certain exceptions) this is plain stupid.. i know, but i dont know hw 2 solve it!

Sigh. wth m i saying all these?? lol.. ok.. will post about today's orientation later when i feel better....

My mood now : 突然想愛你



ToTALLY!!! But WHY??? lol~

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Many times i wanna say... 我爱他...
BUT LOL!!

Sigh. Love is such a powerful word which cant be used now..
lol.. we are still too young..

change... Wo Xi Huan Ta.. :):)
:D i dunno what love is.. but im sure i like you! ^^

Sometimes i find myself cute.
Sometimes i just find myself stupid.

ARGH! Whatever i think am!

zzz dummy

Ok. Today.. First day of attachment..
SO PISSED by myself but since im already used to it; lol im not that angry already :X:X
But actually i was jus 'sway' you know?? (unlucky)

Ok. Cos i've only went there 2 times, i still quite unsure of my way.. SO.. I suddenly forgot where i should be alighting; and i alighted at RAFFLESPLACE (since i rmb it's near raffles link or something)... AND TADA!! when i come out of the Mrt platform; i realised......
'why does the sky here looks so different? why are the buildings look so different? OMFG i alighted at the wrong place' So... I tried to walk around... not long after, I FOUND MYSELF LOST and decided to take a cab there... Then... i told the driver 'raffles link' I ENDED up in the WRONG PLACE... i looked out and i was like where the hell is this place... Then i realised i said the wrong location. -.- ITS SUPPOSED TO BE RAFFLES CITY.. zomg. ARGHHHHHHHHHH
Ha, ha, ha....

I think im under this.. must-take-cab-on-the-first-day (of whatever) spell.. :(
1) 1st day going to shatec; CAB -i didnt lose my way. but i took the wrong bus.
2) 1st day of going chacoal; CAB -lost my way. went to esplanate -.-
3) 1st day of attachment; CAB -lost my way.

Ok. Continue my 'sway-ness'
I buttoned all those irritating hard to button pin into my button pad, then into my uniform THEN I REALISED...
'aye? hw come my uniform looks so crumpled in the middle of the double chested uniform?'
!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh
then i went to ask the laundry aunty... realised -.- cos im going equinots so i have a differnt set of uniform, WHICH doesnt need the button pad. -.-

SO I UNBUTTONED THE 8 IRRITATING BUTTONS from my uniform, then UNBUTTONED from that button pad, and RE-BUTTONED 10 buttons onto my uniform...

:( my thumb hurts. :(
STUPID BUTTON HOLES ON THE UNIFORM... so small :( and i think i need smaller buttons :( THE BUTTONS ARE SO HUGE!!! ZOMG. *evil grins* feel like bringing a mini sissors.. n cut the button holes wider :X:X

OK.. anyway .. Today's my first day right ? (m supposed to talk about what i did)
BUT i can summerize it into a mini paragraph. ORITATION. zzz. boring orientation.. OK today is only my FIRST DAY of orientation. theres 3 DAYS. IUDFYZ:iljSPGFUUIWOAIDHJK

**But im so glad that chef abby is working here too ^^ AND muahahaha she hav to go thru these 3 days orientation too!! LOL!!

Hi im back from INDIA!!
*lol kidding*

Went for a night stay @ Peninsula Excelsior Hotel with parents..


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On Friday, (the night b4 the hotel stay,)-Went to taboo with anna, delia & her frend.
haha it's gays night.. LOL nice.. saw some hotties.. (but...... LOL)

Did enjoy myself.
But i fainted when i saw all the photos in fb..

*digs a hole and hide inside*
I shall jus upload afew 'nice' ones here ok?

(i will never ever order margarita again.. taste very :S:S)


(Delia & her friend.. lol the 229 guy which i.... #$@^& )




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On Friday's afternoon,
V came my house.. 'We' played the piano.
Had our last lunch before my attachment starts at bedok hawker centre -.-
(but ya.. the place we always have our meals @ together ^^)
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(It's han yun & her creepy stories &bedok mac.. LOL)

I was thinking... 'absence makes heart grow fonder..'
I wonder if it's only true for me..

HAHA!

eg, when you spend whole day with this particular person, the next day you will try to avoid that person cos scared will 'sick' of the feeling..

eg, when you and this particular person never meet for days, when you suddenly meet this person... you realised you actually missed that person/ liked that person's company more !!

lol~~
WIERD RIGHT??

sigh my attachment starting soon :( LOL YAY ITS STARTING SOOOON!!!
ARGH! ------too hungry to continue blogging ..

Happy new yr friends!!
:D


Went temple & bugis today,,
Bought 4SETS of under garments and 3 pieces of...
LOL $_$ YEY i love the feeling of spending :D
WONDERFUL!!

*deprived of buying stuffs i like (cos i cnt find anything nice tt i like)
-BUT at the same time im jus buying stuffs i NEED..

ARGH im so afraid of having breast cancer..

"It's not just the underwires in bras that are bad. If any bra leaves red marks or indentations in the skin, then it is too tight and is constricting the lymphatic drainage. Causing breast cancer."

and i realised its actually better not to sleep with bras on.. :X
Sigh now im so afraid now.. (stupid i have fear in everything LOL)